Monday, August 29, 2005

Sorry..

a Public Apology...


Sorry isn't the hardest word to say when you have realised your mistake.

I have let alot of people down during this weekend.

I'm sorry.

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As much as I hope you can forgive me and give me another chance, I understood you might have reached your limit already.

I initiated this apology because I put myself in your shoes and rethink over the incident again when I become more clear headed later. I realised the pain I've inflicted on you.. and us.

Believe or not, I really do realised my mistake and your many little efforts. There are things I hope you can really listen to me. Just listen and not to debate. Things that I've been wanting to tell you but I'm too afraid that it will lead to another quarrel. Things that made me cried in the middle of the night suddenly. Things that I hope they will subside, disappear automatically when I don't think about it. sighs. I'll give up my carrot if you listen to me ok? :p

I have not given up... yet. We need to talk.

But honestly, I won't wait for you forever if you intend to avoid me forever or some absurdly long period...

PS: Deanna, I feel bad and sorry for wasting your time at bpp mac just now. Thanks for lending me a listening ear. I confirm plus chop that won't do that again next week. :)

Saturday, August 27, 2005

Don't anyhow use dulan on ppl leh..

Don't anyhow use dulan on ppl leh..


Since I'm a little bit free now because my fyp tutor said i can choose not to see him next week if I don't want to (Read: He's getting sick of me.), I'll crap abt how i waste my time away these days..


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Monday, I played badminton for the shiokest time! Played somehow non-stop and I think I've managed to stretch most parts of my muscles! Haha.. The post-exercise muscleache wasn't so bad because this time I've learnt to do some warmups before the game begins. But somehow.. I think we have been a little inconsiderate to some ppl. Don't know why, I feel quite bad about it. So, I've decided not to play badminton in school during this semester anymore. All work and no play makes ys a very dull person. but it's ok. Abit more playing doesn't make me very happening also. and who wants to be happening??! argh.

Shopping should just do the trick. :)


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Tuesday, The first step is always the most difficult step to take... I had difficulty getting up from my bed after yesterday's game. So, I missed the first lesson of the day. sighs.

I met He Yulan(HYL) laoshi finally and I'm glad she had brought me some light to my fyp. a tiny weeny bit. but it's still better than nothing. I've been procrastinating to meet her because I don't wanna meet her just to ask her for her codes. But still, I gave in, garnered all my thickskinness and met her in the end.


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Wednesday, Went to school early to attempt my real time system's lab assignment. wahkao, it's not as simple as i think. I over-estimated myself already lah, stupid shan. Spent most of the time in lab freezing (in fear?) rather than racking my brains to finish the assignment. I wondered how do the lab technicians survive in that kind of environment without having to wear an addition winter sweater or jackets?!

Anyway, in conclusion, I left the lab with lotsa question marks.


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Thursday, Went to school early again to read up stuff about my fyp. This fyp is getting on my nerves already. My core subjects are complaining to me that they need more attention from me. Sighs.

damn fyp, the attention grabber.


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Friday, Happy birthday to tigger. I intentionally missed the morning econs lecture for the 1328629452th time. Don't be mistaken, I'm also equally worried about this subject. But, the lecturer sux, and I forbid myself from being confused by him anymore. Ohh.. i wore the orange flare skirt and a pair of mismatching green canvas shoes to school. So terrible. I don't have the courage to lift up my head and i had to keep guarding my skirt from the wind. Ys, the jie ban ren of marilyn monroe? NO WAY!!! And guess what? This had shaken me so much that I've to get a new pair of shoes at Bata, IMMEDIATELY after lessons. haha. But i'm quite satisfied by my impulsive buy, it costs only 15bucks but it looks alot more decent than whatever I was wearing.

No more orange skirts in school in future.

Later, i went to eat and KTV with his frens later. ok lah. quite fun. cus cha xuan gave us a super big room for 6 of us!! the screen is projector type of screen leh.. wireless mics lehh.... mai siao siao ok.. :)

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oh yah, back to the topic, the assistant at cha xuan was getting very irritating to some of the guys because she kept looking in, and kept asking us for drinks orders from time to time. well, personally i think she did overdo a little bit lah. but i think she's trying to be friendly, no harm. but one of them got super irritated and screamed "dulan ah" into the mic. because i think the door was half opened and i think the assistant could have heard us. I felt abit sorry for the assistant.

Anyway, I'm thankful that we had our last order before the dulan incident.

If not..... I think i would be squatting in the toilet now instead of squatting in front of my lappy typing down all these.


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Today, I'm going out to havoc eat and mabbe chill out again. To make up for the loss of attention for my fyp and other core subjects, I've arranged a time with deanna to study tomorrow.

hope we'll really study.... and no, not study anime.. :x

Happy Belated Birthday

Happy Belated Birthday


eyes very dry..

throat very sore..

happybelatedbirthdaytigger..

Monday, August 22, 2005

I'm sick.

I'm sick.


I cried.

slept.

and woke up like nothing had happened.

I'm so sick.

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Check out my new song!

Check out my new song!


I left my heart in San Francisco

Min!! sorry! cus it might trigger some bad memories...
but i really love this song. haha.. way way before secondary school.. i think it reminds of a movie i watched in primary school.. which.. i can't remember already..

but funnily, i could remember that there's a scene about the main actress in a salon talking to her hairdresser about the split ends on her hair and how it relates to her love life. hmmmm... no need me to explain further right?? haha... split ends are her choices. having/keeping too many split ends will spoil her hair. hmm something like that lar...

ahh.. i miss my potato couch dayss.... :p


(Cory George C. Jr./Cross Douglass)

The loveliness of Paris
Seems somehow sadly gay
The glory that was Rome
Is of another day
I've been terribly alone and forgotten in Manhattan
And I'm coming home to my city by the bay

I left my heart in San Francisco
High on a hill, it calls to me
To be where little cable cars
Climb halfway to the stars!
And the morning fog will chill the air

My love waits there (my love waits there) in San Francisco
Above the blue and windy sea
When I come home to you, San Francisco,
Your golden sun will shine for me!

I left my heart in San Francisco
High on a hill, it calls to me
To be where little cable cars
Climb halfway to the stars!
And the morning fog will chill the air

I don't care

My love waits there in San Francisco
Above the blue and windy sea
When I come

When I come home to you, San Francisco,
Your golden sun will shine for me! Yeah


ps: i only like the tune.. as for the place San Francisco.. err... i dun mind going if it's free lah.. hahahaha

Monday, August 15, 2005

Women are from Venus.. Men are from Mars

Women are from Venus.. Men are from Anus Mars



I read something interesting from today's straits times:

"Girls go shopping, see something, then buy it to spoil themselves...
Guys buy something, see that it's now spoilt, and then go shopping..."


:x

KNN

KNN


Someone stole my pink color some say ugly jacket in school!

KNNBCCB!

:x

alright, maybe i lost it myself in a span of 5 minutes while walking from the north spine carpark to the labs. but the possibility is like.. ??!!

aniwae, i decided to study for 3 hours in school.. when my lessons is supposed to end at 130pm..

hardworking right??!!
ehhh.. pls don't question why i am blogging now.

hahaa i'm so proud of myself!

Sunday, August 14, 2005

the redang pictures

the redang pictures


As promised, the redang pictures..



add me to multiply to view more pictures!!

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Baby Pandas

2 Baby Pandas born!!


My distant relative, Panda Xuexue, just gave birth to a twins!

i heard it's one girl one boy!!

hehee..

here's a picture she sent me:
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so tiny!! so cuteee...

:)

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

NDP updates

NDP updates
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The Future is Ours to Make!



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woahh..jet fighters.. actually, when i saw these.. i thought of the movie pearl harbour.. and started to wonder whether the pilots are as cute as josh or Ben... hahaa..

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the parade!
the moon!!
and the helicopter!!!

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I was waiting for the fireworks..

but nothing happened.. so i loked in front.. and saw
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hey look there!

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The humble fireworks!! my camera is too slow to take consecutive photos and I really hate the project screens..

Later, it's all about partying and cheering... the parade is filled with different arrays of colors from differnet groups of performers as usual.. so, i left and went to lau pat sat to catch a super late dinner or early supper...

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On the way to Lau Pat Sat, i didn't forget to take a photo with the old singapore post office in red and white that day! Fulleton!!~ haha. i have a thing for old colonial buildings ba..

That's how i wasted spent my holiday National Day.

Sighs.

School gonna start in 2 hours time...

Ciao!

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

For My Home... Singapore!

For My Home...
Happy Birthday Singapore!~
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Took 200 over photos at NDP.. haha..

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My legs making their way to NDP Padang.

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So many early birds like me! Hot weather. Red Traffic. If you look closer, we are actually waiting for some contingent to march off.

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Building Snapshot while waiting......

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On our feet! NDP here we go!~

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WoohoooOOo~ The goodies bags ahead!!

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GASP! a Loop Hole Spotted!! HOw??

No lar.. it's just another shortcut..

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I almost had heatstroke! But ocassional clouds like this made my day.

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I love this Old Parliament&Stage view... *breathtaking* - pls ignore the background sweepers of cos.

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The 5 MCs with "their" sports cars... pretty pretty..

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Military Bands! hahahaha.. lucky we didn't have to march and play like that.

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The Parachuters! "Dancing in the air!"

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Singapura Flag!! sweeeee sweeee!~

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ermm.. i can only say... Hiccups do happen...

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beautiful Skylines and the Contingents... *_*

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the Good Old Parli again!! but the stupid projector spoils everything larr. *sulk*

yawns.. ok, i'll continue tmr.

Sunday, August 07, 2005

I'm so bored..

I'm so bored..


so i played this game from japan:

PLAY

it began like this:
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and later grew to this!! every parts must be maximised!
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quite fun lei!!
I've completed it~~~ yea!

enjoy!

Personality test - Get to know yourself better

Personality Test - Get to know yourself better


Not necessarily true.. Just a reference or boost! hahaha

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Analysis: The Real Me


You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.

Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.

Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.

Analysis: My Personality Love Style


Love at first sight is your style. You are not fussy about who you fall for, and often there seems to be no rational reason for you deciding to love someone, it just happens and you'll follow your heart. When you do fall for someone, you fall completely. Your love is somewhat child-like, or what people like to call "puppy love". While following your heart is important, you should also remember to use your head occasionally. ys, take note.

Analysis: My Personality Type


A confident person - tsk.. ignore.. i think this is rubbish..
You like to do activities on your own. You are confident and that's why you don't care what other people think about you. You are ambitious and often worry about your future. You don't like to be a follower because you like to be independent - this means you are always trying your best to be the leader. You are attractive to other people because of your confidence and intelligence.

What does being a friend really mean to you?


You value your friendships: 65% wahliew.. i'm not an A graded friend.
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

opps very boring i know.... i'm bored larr..
U can take the quiz urself here:
Get to know yourself better

Saturday, August 06, 2005

some things are not meant to be that way.

some things are not meant to be that way.


They are meant to be that way when we didn't choose to change it.

Many times in life (at least for me), we've met situations with very difficult decisions to make.

Logically, you know you should let go.

But there always exists some mysterious force telling you otherwise.. and this is not as simple as the demon and angel scenario as color black and white are not clearly defined....... yet..

You know whatever step you choose eventually will be a gamble.

And when u are not a risk taker, you'll stay poot*, procrastinate and wait for birdshit to fall from the sky..

in other words, u didn't do anything.

in other words, u are accountable to whatever shit u would receive in future and u don't just shrug off and say things like "it's meant to this way lorh..". But i'm sure alot of times, people (chose to) forgot and tend to deceive themselves and then the complaining starts.

ok, let me recount one of my real life experiences here....

ready?
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get set....
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take in a deep breath!!
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and.......
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GO!!

Ididn'tdropcryptographyandnetworksecurityforaneasiersubjecteventhoughihighlysuspect
i'mgonnahaveatoughtimeunderstandingandpassingthemodule.

so, ys take note!! next time, u better not go ard complaining that u shd have dropped it. Cus u were given a chance, but u didn't take it. u chose to wait and procrastinate. anyway, i wish u goodluck! it may not be a bad thing afterall..

heh heh.

Thursday, August 04, 2005

my timetable. good luck.

my timetable. good luck.



my timetable!

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look look!!

my lesson is only gonna start at 630pm today!

i thought i would be happy then..

but why am i getting impatient now?!

women!

:x

hahahaha

Monday, August 01, 2005

Happy birthday to huiting!

Happy birthday!


to my primary school friend

and my favorite friend.

Happy birthday huiting!!~

:)

Post Redang

Post Redang


Yeah, i'm back in singapore!

weakling me got homesick while i'm over at redang.

redang is very beautiful, i'll post the pics later!!

it's as beautiful as the pictures i've seen on the websites!!!

so much the same such that i don't feel too much excitement when i saw the island.

:[

haha anyway, i got to appreciate singapore's city life after the trip.

like today, i went orchard alone!!

and i walked around alone!!

all the way from wisma to bugis junction!!

hehee, and unlike the sometimes super low esteem me, i did not feel intimidated at all!!

i even walked into simlim alone!! hahaa..

all because i felt like it.

maybe i really missed singapore town too much. i'm already looking forward to national day when the train pass by some hdb flats and i saw singapore flags hanging outside!! *grins*

after collecting my hp from wisma, i went urbanwarehouse to talk to my previous employer. she asked me whether i can go back to work on this weekend or the next one. because weekend means only 2 days and because 2 days means i don't have to pay to cpf and because i dun have to pay to cpf it means my take home pay will be relatively higher and because there are alot of august babies ard.. so, extra income is very much welcome!! (only if it doesn't affect my studies lar..) so there i told my supervisor i can work on next week only because i had alot to catch up on my studies...... and of cos, FYP.... and she said she'll contact me later. but i'm still wondering.

when i left urbanwarehouse, i felt it's too early for me to go back home, so i walked to orchard point OG to take a look at the meiji goodies at level 4!!!

meiji stuffs are so cute!! and they don't just look good can.. they taste as delicious as well!!! (only the prices are not very good)..

although i tried very hard to stop myself from buying anything today, the weakling me came alive and bought 3 meiji products in the end..

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note: time to kick this i-must-spend-money-because-i'm-in-super-good-mood habit.

after meiji shopping at OG, i walk to simlim square to hunt for my printer ink. and then i realised..... i forgot it's my black ink or color ink i wanted to buy!!!!!

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but since i've already made my way there from orchard, i decided to walk ard and take a look at the prices before i made my way to the nearby guan yin temple to pray.

that's when i felt super hungry and sweaty and decided it's time to go home.

on the way to bugis mrt station, i didn't forget to buy myself a currypuff and oldchangkee's crab wrap even though i'm having an on and off sorethroat!!

note: time to kick this i-want-to-eat-junk-because-i-am-very-hungry habit.

anyway, my sorethroat is getting better after taking the Trachisan Throat lozenges!!

the lozenges work wonders!

but my stubborn stiff neck still wouldn't go away...

:(

it's so painful sometimes that it made me a little tempted to go to min's acupuncturist lorh..

hmm... anyone wanna go there too?

hahaha..

today is a good day!